Have you ever met someone that was so special, you couldn't stop thinking about them? That person is everything you could ever dream of.

I let go for a while and things were going great, then something about the Christmas season made you pop back into my head. I wish I could just tell you how I felt and have that happy ever after people always tell you about.

I hate wanting what I can't have because its getting harder and harder to let go...

Everybody grows up and changes. People change and become interested in different things, some find passion for music, some find that passion in art, others find it in sports, and some are content without any passion at all. College is a time where some of the biggest change happens and the experiences that you go through can shape your life.

I have changed from who I was in high school. I hate some aspects of the new me and love other parts. I love my new friends, yet I really miss my old best friends from high school. I get sad when my old friends do big group things and I just feel forgotten about. I try to keep in touch, but it never seems to work because everyone is busy with their new life. Should I keep holding on or just let go? I feel bad when I see people from high school and they still have that love for music and still think I have it too. Don't get me wrong, I support them 150%, I just don't have that love anymore.

I'm glad that I am growing and changing. I've truly become an individual and I'm not just one in the crowd (not a bad thing, just not my style). I just wish other people could grow up and be open to new ideas. I wish some people would realize that I enjoy doing things outside of just video games, yes I enjoy playing them, but I'm not the competitive gamer I used to be. I get another step closer to my goal every time I can get out and train, yet at the same time I feel like I am taking another step away from some of the people I care about the most...

Feel free to post your thoughts.

Why me... seriously? Why am I the one that has dating issues? I find the most amazing girl and its only a temporary fix and not even that somedays...

Things were going so well and were drama free for a while and then I have one slip up and then I get shit on (not literally). I was just playing around and left a few red marks on Megans neck and then the next thing I know, her dumb bitch ass ex boyfriend is starting shit with me. I can normally take name calling, but when you start fucking attacking my race and tell me to go back to asia, expect a fight. The only funny thing is that he doesn't even know the right slang things to call me because Im not a fucking chink...

I hope I see him again when I'm by myself so I have nobody there to hold me back...